[Pamela]

Hello All

What a time I have had not sure where to start but if I waffel on I am sure you will all forgive me.

We are now in our new home and the container arrived all ok nothing damaged or lost, Dont laugh but one of the last things that I had to do before we left England was insure the goods coming over, Said to the guys after they had packed it all omg I have not done the insurance, And the team leader said don't worry only really need it if the ship sinks so I took the gamble but spent the next six weeks having nightmares bearing in mind never told Peter.

We then had a the weekend to say goodbye to the Girls and grandchildren and that must be one of the hardest things that we have had to do, Courtney who is 6 sobbed and said Nanny & Grandad I don't want you to go that was so hard and we all sobbed uncontrolably it was heart wrenching we are so close and she spent most weekends with us. My Daughter just said I promised myself that I would not do this, but emotions are hard to control and a good cry drained us all .

Next the airport only one friend came with us and was crying as well and he never shows emotions. I suppose its like a loss and people handle things in different ways but I must say I never want to go through anything like that again. We flew with cathay Pacific who were excellent and the first leg was fantastic we had loads of free seats and had 4 in a row each so lots of sleep great food rubbish after my last trip which was business class but at least it was one way, Hong Kong airport not to bad only had 4 hours so freshen up and lots of burger king coffee for next leg which was rammed but hey half way to our new begginings so what the hell.

No delays or problems and we arrived 2 days before our visa's expired what a feeling.

Then we spent the next few weeks at my Brothers who was going through a hard time with his partner and they have now parted so we were stuck in the middle not nice very uncomfortable but we got through and he moved out 3 days before us so we got the brunt of it but hey we coped piece of cake compered to leaving England lol.

Richard has really suprised us playing football and starts uni 10th July so welcome to the real world Son. He talks to his maes on msn and is making mates no worries, funny what you pick up in a few weeks.

I must admit that I am struggling with and missing the things that we all take for granted . When we arrived it was so unreal not to have keys to anything car and home I found that hard silly really but to me it was an issue and I do get lonley and to have a mobile and home phone that doesnt ring is the strangest feeling I have had. I have phoned home many a morning just for conversation how sad am I.

Diny has been a godsend and let me rabbit till I bored the pants off her sorry mate. But when the Men are at work and we look at the walls all day it drives you up the wall you can only window shop for so long.

And another thing that I find myself doing is snapping at Peter something I do not do and he said what is happening here to which I replied I am lonely and lost please help me here will you. Then breaking down in tears and not really knowing why, But I am sure many others have gone through these sort of things as well, Just trying to explain to you all and unburdern myself to the forum because you lot have all helped me many time before. And I have all ways felt better after.

I Just need a good meet up with forum members which I think Diny will sort out shortly then let the good time begin which I know will come and also things will get better I hope because at the end of the day we came here so I could get to know my wonderful Brother who life I missed out on for 37 years, So Pictures next I think because I now have a New computer as mine died and also have braodband so my link to the outside world is back.

Just hope my experiences have not bored you too much. Kat thanks for your pm and if you get the chance pm me again and will give you my home number and anyone else who wants it just drop me a pm I would love to have the phone ringing off the wall.lol

Chatch up again soon

Pam xxxx

[zardell]

Hi Pam.

Welcome back to the forum......lovely to hear from you again.

I've read and re-read your post over and over - it's so honest and from the heart and when we arrive in NZ (hopefully in the next few months) I can imagine myself having very similar thoughts and feeling to you.

Now, as far as Diny is concerned - well, what a star eh? She puts up with my moaning and groaning too - God help her when I actually get there....lol

Looking forward to reading your updates,

Julie

xx

[off2nz]

Hi Pam

Good to have you back! Sorry to hear that things havent been as smooth for you as they could have been. We've been here 2 weeks now and I can understand what you are saying although I do have my girls with me all day every day while OH is at work.

The thing you say about not having keys to anything - I know where you're coming from! We've put an offer on a house and should be moving in on 30th June so we're keeping everything crossed for that.

(Have pm'ed you too).

Ginni

[willowshouse]

What a lovely honest post! It's obviously been a tough journey for you, keep your chin up!

It's a great big change in your life and I don't think you'd be normal if you didn't experience 'a downer' .. All the good stuff just needs a little time to build up to outweigh the difficult stuff.

Look forward to reading your next post :yes

Dawn

[Diny]

Pam !!! You didn't bore me at all. It was great to talk to you, and I'll be returning the call in a few days.

Just hang in there, things do get better. I know that just doesn't seem possible at the moment but believe me they do. I never thought I'd be at the stage I am now.

Take one day at a time, I found it helpful not to think too far into the future. In the early days, the thought of NZ being my home for life almost crippled me. Now I just believe that NZ is a great place for the here and now. Who knows where the future will take any of us, the important thing is to be happy in the present. Master the first step and the next step kind of comes naturally.

Time is a great medicine for all kinds of ailments. See how things go, keep up the lines of communication and remember, on life's great journey always travel along the two way streets - don't take the 'no exits'.

I've been where you are, and I know for a fact that alot of others on this forum have too .... and look at us now.

Diny

[Kim39]

Good to have you back Pam. Believe me what you are feeling is probably how i have felt over the last few months, but for different reasons. Its nothing to be ashamed of, and really is a normal reaction from any normal human being making a move half way round the world. Glad to hear Richard is settling in and getting to play the footie(who is he playing for?), and i hope he is toughning up the Kiwi's, cos these guys need it badly, as they don't like the rough and tumble the brits are prepared to dish out.

Anyway if your up for a coffee, we are only down SH3 in Te Awamutu, so jump the car and come down. Just give us a shout though.

Hope to catch ya soon.

Kim