[Gumbygreeneye]

I'm sitting here in the living room at 5am having been up for an hour. A bloomin' bird woke me up and I don't mean my wife! The last three nights the same thing has happened except those times I was just able to get back to sleep.

The counter point to the high of the visa is the thought of all I leave behind now. It's not that I have a second thought about going as we're on the start of out next adventure, but as likely for most it's the midnight lament. Now the visas are in our hands, we are going in less than two weeks.

The garden has just come to maturity after 10 years living here. I know every fine crack in the plasterwork. I noticed a new one and I won't be here to fix it. My car of the last 6 years that I got when I first qualified might be sold to a guy tomorrow who says innit after every sentence. I hope he treats my car well.

I know possessions are just that but we seem to invest so much emotion in them. My family and friends will surely visit, but it's wierd that their life will carry on as normal the day we leave. They still go to work and play. Somehow I want the world to stop we when go.

Believe it or not, to ease the misery of parting with the dog we'd had for years, after the last visit to some dear friends when we had a long trip, we left her there, to help us adjust. We found out she died a few days ago. We're okay about this and know she was too old to travel etc. Another hint perhaps at closure in this country.

Anyway, enough moping. I actually feel a lot better already. Off to get some decaff and read Frank Herbert's Dune, and maybe I'll fall asleep again!

Cheers,

KJ

[Diny]

Good posting. I know exactly how you feel - and I'm sure there's many others on this forum who do too.

I can still see our old house as though I was 'innit' (sorry - just had to say that) this morning. I miss it, I miss the carpets, the decor, the kitchen, my MASSIVE stainless steel range cooker, my home office ..... just about everything (like you, it took us 8 years to get it exactly as we liked it). I sometimes have to check myself about missing the old place and help myself along by remembering how it came to be a millstone around our necks in the weeks before our departure (praying for the elusive sale etc).

Wanting the world to stop when you leave - yeah I understasnd that too. It's abit of a double edged sword though. Half of me gets really jealous when I hear about the 'old crowd' back home doing all the things we use to, but on a recent trip back to the UK I really noticed how nothing (back there) had changed - and found this a great comfort (knowing that my old life still exisits) - difficult to explain really.

Also add to the equation that you're 2 weeks off leaving, each new day will bring another emotion - some you'll see coming, others will knock you for six.

You hit the nail on the head when you called this your 'adventure'. No matter what the future brings - no matter what our expectations, emotions, hopes & fears are, at the end of the day - stay or go - you'll have had one heck of an adventure.


Chin up.

Diny

[Gumbygreeneye]

Thanks Diny,

I actually really do feel a lot better. I think 4am is a rotten time to wake up.

I see my profile has changed now... hmmm, a note to all the right honorable readers, "I do NOT have a junior member!" ;)

Hm

KJ

[mossum]

Hi KJ

I hope you got some sleep - I seemed to get non - I think I woke up 20 times between 2 am & 6 am - when I finally gave in & got up . My hubby suggested enya - LOL but I got bored after hearing it 3 times ......

So lots going through my head too - we accepted an offer yesterday( full asking price !) & they want to exchange asap & complete within 5 weeks- eeeeekkk . It would appear we are going to NZ !!!!! weird - we've wanted to for so long & known we would be going some time - but now its here ........ have to admit the emotions certantly shift up another gear .

Diny - I agree with you about the house - we had geusts on friday & they raved on & on about what a wonderful house & how could we leave the garden . 7 years of vey hard work ...... but we will do it again - lol it just gets a bit harder & you have less enthusiasim as you get that bit older ( & are now on house number ???? - that youve totally turned around )

early morning ramblings here , hope I've made some sense ...

vic

[gil]

Congratulations vic! There ARE buyers out there! Really pleased for you xx

[Charlosparky]

we accepted an offer yesterday( full asking price !) & they want to exchange asap & complete within 5 weeks- eeeeekkk . It would appear we are going to NZ !!!!! weird - we've wanted to for so long & known we would be going some time - but now its here ........ have to admit the emotions certantly shift up another gear

We had an offer yesterday too and have to admit that suddenly it seems real and ALL the emotions start coming. Check out the post in this section by smitjo "help- i'm having a panic attatck" its about 6 below this one. I read it last night and it made me feel tons better, and its written better than i can so i wont try to repeat it here :nice1

[zardell]

Morning All

Yep, I'm another one that's been up since, I dunno, 6-ish maybe...

I was just chatting to a friend, another forum member who can't sleep (do you think there's a medical term for this Gumby, apart from insomnia?!) and we were saying that it's all about loss versus gain.

Loosing the securities that your old life provides and gaining the insecurities that your new life will inevitably bring........in an attempt to gain DIFFERENT securities. And so it goes on.........

We'll all be right.............. :yes

Julie

xx

ps.

Know what you mean about cracks in the plasterwork Gumby. We've sold our house, but my hubby still spent yesterday doing small jobs.

[zardell]

We had an offer yesterday too




CONGRATULATIONS.

Its a great feeling isn't it, but a bit scary too !!

:cheers

Julie

xx

[Gumbygreeneye]

Congratulations to Mossum and Charlosparky's positive steps with their homes. :nice1

My wife, whilst sitting and sifting through the forum wisely points out to me, when thinking of how right it is for us to emigrate, the following-

Scenario - We have made all our plans to go then in the end decide the wrench is too much and decide to stay in the UK. The months roll by till our due date to leave passes. We can't resist looking at the forum and watching as the people move and write of their new experiences.

If this would fill you with curiousity and regrets then go! If you think to yourself that you could live with it, then think again.

Plus on another note, on telling my patients of our plans over the last 6-12 months I have lost track of the number of older patients, who said that they had the forms ready to go but for whatever reason they didn't, and they always regreted it. ...Oh and by the way they've got a cousin Bill out there who's doing very well for themselves in carpeting and has a Mitsubishi and a house with a pool and married a lovely Kiwi girl!...

This helped me rationalise my thoughts.

Medical term for sleepless nights from leaving the coutry.. Emiglepsy

Cheers,

KJ

PS Never did manage to get back to sleep but woke my wife up! Share the misery!

[zardell]

[QUOTE=Gumbygreeneye]Medical term for sleepless nights from leaving the coutry.. EmiglepsyQUOTE]




Perfect...... :nice1

Julie

xx

[mossum]

emiglepsy

love it - DR grumble pease tell us there is a cure !!!! ps liver cant take any more red wine

lol vic :cheers

[Avalon]

Emiglepsy - :D love it!

[willsken]

May I add my congratulations to Mossum and Charlosparky's in selling their houses. Very pleased for you both. :clap

I also have to add to Gumbygreeneye/KJ your sense of humour really makes me snigger. Very funny. :D

I sleep like a baby every night ....... should I worry? :roll Didn't rise from my pit till 9.30 this morning :o Mossum - I think thats what makes me sleep so soundly!

[marcia]

LOL at the new term for the disease suffered by 99% of members if this forum!!!

emiglepsy :nice1

[Gumbygreeneye]

Hi I'm back again,

Suffering badly from a severe case of emiglepsy. The "innit-chap" didn't turn up in the end and so I called him to confirm that it was a no show. Mr. Dodgy himself initially tried to tell me that I had got the wrong number. When I insisted that it was indeed the correct number and after another lot of reminders, he remembered... after a fashion.

He asked me for the millionth time how much the car was (it's in the flipping autotrader.. he called me for Pete's sake). He then asked me how many doors it had? Dear God! He apologised then saying he had only just woken up after having a smoke. Oh aye? Wacky baccy heh? And to think, he could have been driving my car (probably without a license, doped up and unlike my car, not firing on all cylinders!.. he happened to mention that his license wasn't with him as he was having points put on it). Suffice to say I told him not to waste any more of my time.

Thanks again for the cheering replies,

KJ

[K&CS]

Hi KJ. Well, you really wouldn't have wanted to sell it to someone like him, would you??

I'm up early today too - hubby insisted I made him tea and toast before he went off to work and I'm actually watching the footy (only cos there's nothing else on) and making the most of this wonderful sunrise.

I know exactly how you're all feeling. We were desperate to get a sale on our house and when we finally did last December, my next door neighbour came round and all the kids decorated the xmas tree while we drank lots of wine, and I started thinking about how could I leave all this behind, despite having been so excited only a few hours earlier.

I knew I would never forgive myself if we didn't get on that plane - life's too short not to take chances or to have adventures. Those last couple of weeks in the UK were awful - for worse than anything I experienced since I got here - the anticipation of leaving it all behind was worse for me than actually doing it! I do think of our old house a lot too - we had also completely renovated it. Friends who lived nearby keep telling me what the new owners are doing to it and I really wish they wouldn't - I don't want to know!! I want to remember it the way it was! I'd still rather have our view of the sea that we have here, rather than the view of other houses that we used to have!

KJ - you medical folk are a bit obsessed with your members, aren't you?

Hope you all managed to get back to sleep and good luck with house sales and the next few weeks. Gil, I hope you have some good news soon - is there nothing you can do to speed things up at all (we dramatically reduced the price on ours, but it did the trick, and I really do mean dramatically!)

Kate x

[Smiler]

emiglepsy

love it - DR grumble pease tell us there is a cure !!!! ps liver cant take any more red wine

lol vic :cheers

Yep there's something in the air here that cures it over night. ;)

Loved reading this thread and remembering all those doubts and huge wobbles. By the time the skip was on the drive filled with our tat, my sis had taken my car and our cases were packed, we were more than ready to go, doubts and all, innit.